Autumnal Attunement

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GROWTH IS A MANY LEVELLED THING

When we remember and honour the sacred seasonal turning points of the Wheel of the Year we attune ourselves to the rhythms of Eternity. As the number of people attuning grows, the Collective Consciousness is changed. Each turn of the Wheel we become more of OurSelves, we see that

We human beings are multi-faceted creatures

We have Physical form

We have Instincts and Desires

We have Will, Ego and Personality

And powerful Emotions, blissful to raw and extreme

through emotional trials we gain emotional strength

The Cosmos have given us the gift of Self-Awareness and Self-Expression

We have Spirit, Intuition, Creativity

that can unlock the Divine Core of our Nature

We have the potential to love unconditionally

forgive irresistibly

and hasten the day when the species wakes up

to its Unity and Interdependence with All Creation.

The Soul incarnates to have experiences that enable growth in all these levels of its being

Autumn 2017: Experiences are coming hard and fast for those on the crest of the wave of change. A key to the Aquarian Age, to making the leap to higher understanding, is to engage compassion and to learn to accept experiences on an impersonal level. The Collective Consciousness is doing what it needs to do to bring about the transformation of life on Earth. Some experiences suck, but so do we when we label them ‘wrong’ or when we condemn the people involved. We assist or resist the growth of love through every thought and action. People will hurt us, will make us angry, we will be tested and we will find dark places in ourselves we would rather were not there. But we can also detach from their power, because those places must be there, we have created those places over many lifetimes.

IN THIS LIFETIME WE CAN CHANGE EVERYTHING

The Autumn Season invites us to harvest the produce of the good seeds we have sown and to let go of anything on any level that restrains our personal and communal growth – like trees we can drop our dead leaves and create compost for our future glories. With bonfires we can burn away the debris of times past, and while doing so remember and be with loved ones who have passed and attune ourselves to the rhythms of eternity.

 

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UK Rad Fae and the Sexual Offences Act

“The first phase of Gay Liberation (1969-1990) created a small clearing in the forest of Heterosexual Supremacy where we could begin to find ourselves again with self-acceptance.
Now it is our historic responsibility to move beyond Gay Assimilation and Sexual
Orientation, the ideology of current gay leadership, to the next phase of Gay Liberation.  This work involves, with conscious awareness, existentially and historically reclaiming and discovering ourselves and roles we have played in society and continue to play, unconsciously. This work is, at a fundamental level, both political and spiritual.”

Radical Faerie pioneer and Queer Elder, Don Kilhefner

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In the UK 2017 has seen actions, celebrations, art shows and much discussion around the 50 year anniversary of the Sexual Offences Act of 1967, which partially decriminalised sex between men in England and Wales. The act made it legal for two men aged over 21 to have sex in private – in fact if anyone else was in the same house at the time the sex was still illegal – this was overturned by the European court in 2000, not long ago. (Scotland legalised gay male sex on the same basis in 1981 and Northern Ireland in 1982).  In fact persecution of gay men did not suddenly end – there were over 15000 prosecutions for indecent gay behaviour in the decades following the act.  Only once the Labour government came to power in 1997 did the atmosphere really change, with the age of consent equalised (in 2 stages), the vile Tory Clause 28 repealed, plus adoption rights and civil partnerships were granted too.

The Wolfenden Report, on which the Sexual Offences Act was based, had actually been written a decade earlier, but it took the societal shifts of the 1960s before any action was taken.  During those 10 years the British Empire shrank – many, especially African, countries became independent. Britain retreated, leaving behind its legacy of homophobic attitudes and legislation, as it had already done in India and elsewhere.  The British Empire did so much to damage indigenous attitudes to gender-fluid individuals and same-sex erotic activity around the world, and its current formulation, the Commonwealth, continues to turn a blind eye to virulent homophobic legislation.

  • In India it is an offence to “voluntarily [have] carnal intercourse against the order of nature with any man, woman or animal”.
  • In Mauritius, it is a crime to commit “sodomy or bestiality”.
  • In Uganda, a law provides for a seven-year jail term for anyone who conducts a same-sex marriage ceremony.
  • The Singapore Penal Code prohibits “any act of gross indecency with another male person” in “public or private”, with a maximum penalty of two years in prison.
  • Zimbabwe President Robert Mugabe has previously said that:“Homosexuals are worse than dogs and pigs; dogs and pigs will never engage in homosexual madness,” and followed this up in 2013 by stating that LGBT people were “worse than pigs, goats and birds”.

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“The penalties for private, consensual sexual conduct between same sex adults remain harsh in a number of Commonwealth countries. They include 10 years imprisonment and hard labour in Jamaica, 14 years in Kenya, 20 years plus flogging in Malaysia, and 25 years in Trinidad and Tobago. Bangladesh, Barbados, Guyana, Pakistan, Sierra Leone, Tanzania and Uganda have a maximum sentence of life imprisonment, while in the 12 northern states of Nigeria the maximum penalty for male homosexuality is death. In some countries such as Cameroon, arrests and imprisonment for acts that indicate homosexuality are frequently reported. In Uganda and Nigeria recent legislative proposals would significantly increase the penalties for homosexuality.

“Member states outlawing homosexuality include Cameroon, Ghana, Kenya, Swaziland, Tanzania, Uganda, Zambia, Bangladesh, India, Malaysia, Pakistan, Antigua and Barbuda, Grenada, Guyana, Saint Kitts and Nevis, Saint Lucia, Saint Vincent and the Grenadines, Papua New Guinea, the Solomon Islands, Malawi, Namibia, Sierra Leone, Singapore, Sri Lanka, Barbados, Dominica, Jamaica, Trinidad and Tobago, Kiribati and Tonga.” Wikipedia

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While mainstream Gay culture has pursued a largely Assimilationist approach – consumerism, gay marriage etc, the Radical Faeries are a tribe of Gay Essentialists who create spaces around the world where queer people can live on our own terms, not those of the dominant hetero culture.  We get to explore who we are in zones of creative, supportive, safety.  The downsides of the Assimilationist universe – body fascism, objectification, judgmental bitchiness, deadly drug abuse etc – hardly show up in Faerie spaces. When we are free to express the love, lust and joy in our souls without fear or restriction we discover that there is much more to being queer than what we do sexually.

Radical Faerie tribes have emerged in the USA, UK, continental Europe, Israel and Australia since the 1970s, evolving on the sidelines of the queer universe, usually meeting far from cities in wild natural places.  This summer over 100 faeries from these tribes joined with representatives from countries where it is much, much harder to live out our lives at a GLOBAL FAERIE GATHERING held at Featherstone Castle in Northumberland, UK.  Queers from China, Russia, Pakistan, Singapore, Nigeria, Cameroon and Benin joined the gathering, the intention of which was to foster the emergence of Global Radical Faerie community, so that “queer people step up and claim our freedom and security and human rights, our meaningful and valuable place in society.”

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This Faerie of Albion believes the situation for gay/queer people on the planet could be dramatically improved if the Commonwealth owned up to the evil legacy left by the British Empire. I would like to see Queen Elizabeth II, who has never spoken about gay issues, to send out a positive message to her queer subjects across the world.  I would like her

– to speak out about the plight of lgbtiq+ people in the Commonwealth
– apologise for the evil legacy of homophobic legislation that the British Empire left in place around the world
– affirm that gay, lesbian, trans, bi, intersex, queer people have important roles to play in society, in fact without our cultural and spiritual input there can never be balance in the world.

While Londoners have had a summer full of ’50 years partial decrim’ activities to explore – art shows, demos, parties etc – the Faeries have mostly been out and about at festivals and gatherings.  London Fae hold full moon get togethers in the city during the year, but in the summer we scatter to the four directions to soak up the good energy and good times.  Now as we prepare for our Autumn programme of activities the Equinox is presenting us with an opportunity to make a contribution to the commemoration in our own unique style – one of the things that makes Faeries so distinct from mainstream gay life is our love of ritual.  A plan has emerged to gather at Equinox (22nd Sept) at the mystical circle of 13 trees on the eastern edge of Green Park, close to Buckingham Palace and make ritual on the theme of balance before popping along for a photo opportunity on the Mall – this will be backed up with letters to the Palace and Commonwealth Office outlining our polite request for some affirmative action.  Surely the 50 year anniversary of the ’67 act has been headlined enough for the Queen to publicly mention homosexuality – transexuality – bisexuality for the first time in her reign?

We are asking the Commonwealth to send a message to its queer citizens.  We know that pressure on governments can be deleterious to our cause.  What we seek instead is a grassroots rising of confident queer campaigners who feel empowered and emboldened to take on the hatred and misinformation that abounds in their countries.  I am asking Queen Elizabeth to send a message of affirmation to the world that gives these activists, lovers and dreamers a boost they so desperately need.

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The work we do as Radical Faeries links the spiritual with the political because it is about queer people around the world redefining Who We Are and letting the world know about it.  The Radical Faeries are inclusive of people of all abilities and from all roots. At this Equinox Action there will not be huge amounts of walking and the surfaces we move across are mostly flat, once assembled.

To join in come find us at the Tree Circle, which is just off the path that leads from Green Park station (London W1) towards Buckingham Palace – look for the trees adorned with ribbon – at 6pm prompt on Friday 22nd September.

AND PLEASE DRESS TO EXPRESS YOUR QUEER SPIRIT AND FAERIE POWER, BRING RATTLES/BELLS, FAERIE LIGHTS…. PLACARDS AND BANNERS TOO…

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The Signs are There for Those Who Can See

 

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The Solar Eclipse in August brought a collective reset to human consciousness.  The energy of transformation and renewal has been intense since July, and we may well have been reeling from the effects.  Many have received some major energetic downloads from spirit and had experiences that are taking time to absorb.  The Moon has reached Aquarius (2nd/3rd September), the sign in which it was eclipsed a month ago, that eclipse being the opening of a magical portal of consciousness that peaked at the Leo Solar eclipse, bringing us now some fresh cosmic air, perspective and detachment into the equation.  This will help us make the internal shifts we have to make to integrate what’s come our way, and become more fully ourselves, better able to joyfully live out our part within the whole.

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Aquarius Moon Sunday Morning

Gentle Sunshine Outside

Air Is Still, Trees Green and Serene

Birdsong the sweet, sweet soundtrack.

Koo Koo sing the Wood Pigeons

Humanity is so Koo Koo

My heart sings with the birds

Humanity’s suffering is worse than absurd

Only we forget that we are the Dance

…. and all the dancers….

My Dragon wings been outstretched

This Summer as the Lion Sun brought rebirth

Life’s vibration shifting and lifting

My Heart sings with the birds

As old stories end and new tales begin

Could this be the time to reveal to the world

That the only thing that cuts us off from our love and our light

Is the despicable concept of Sin

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The Signs are There for Those Who Can See

It’s time we were singing a new tune

A huge change is coming soon

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Summer 2017

Summer Solstice 2017 came during the waning phase of the moon and was followed very quickly by Dark Moon.  The surge of light, joy and excitement at the glorious hot sunny Solstice gave way to a strong, internal, emotional pull and purge (or perhaps simply as a need to rest) as the universe prepared us for a powerful SuperNew Moon in Cancer on the 24th June.

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Dark Moons are about releasing what no longer serves us, about facing the shadow and turning within to heal before the outward moving energy returns at New Moon. The Dark Moon can be a peaceful time of rest and recharge, but if we have emotional issues/baggage/wounds relating to whichever part of the consciousness that the moon is currently triggering, this can be a tough time. It’s important to remember we all have issues, they just appear (for clearing) at different times for different people.  We can help the process, ease our experience of it, by allowing it, accepting it, even welcoming it. As always, the deeper we go into our pain and darkness the more of it we can clear out of our energy fields.  As Spring energy ends we get the chance for a final Spring clean, of mind, body and soul, ready for whatever the Summer will bring.

For Summer has just begun.  The Solstices are turning points that bring us into Summer in June and Winter in December, just as the Equinoxes open the doors to Spring and Autumn.  The popular name often going around at Solstice is ‘Midsummer’, which is a hangover from Norse cultures where there were really only two seasons in the year.  Shakespeare has a lot to answer for.  By associating Solstice with Midsummer we are telling our subconscious that the most outgoing, playful, hot and sexy season of the year is already half done.  For most of us that is not a cheering thought, and i recommend replacing it with a strong affirmation that SUMMER STARTS HERE – for 3 months now, through the astrological months of Cancer, Leo and Virgo, we get to be Summer babies. This is the season to express, to explore, to play and discover, to commune with and attune to nature, to be out in the world, being all of who we are.  The time to turn within, to repair and realign the self, will come again soon enough.

“The New Moon in Cancer is a good time to commit to personal goals that express the positive energies of the sign of the Crab. These include honoring our deepest, most irrational and intimate, feelings; recognizing the sense of security and safety we derive from whatever it is we call home; allowing ourselves to accept support and offering support to others; and starting a project aimed at improving our domestic lives or a major long-term venture. With this potent Cancer energy, we have the chance to make important changes in our lives that will benefit us well beyond this Moon cycle.”  cafeastrology.com

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A major influence on our journeys through Summer 2017 is going to be retrograde Neptune. The ruling planet of Pisces, who influences our spiritual well-being, began his retrograde motion just before the Solstice, on June 16th, and it will continue until November.  This retrograde energy is said to bring a wake up call that can prompt big changes in our lives – it gets us in touch with what is really important to us, enables us to cut out the fantasies, stop ignoring life issues (such as bad relationships or debts), and make clear plans for our future.

This Summer follows the challenges of an intense Winter/Spring season, the turmoil has been manifesting in the bigger global picture as well as in individual lives.  The year of the Fire Rooster is living up to its reputation. Solstice was heralded by many as the entrance into light and expansion, into better and easier times, but then came along the punch of Dark Moon which will have probably disillusioned many already.  The thing to hang on to is that we have to go into our dark places, our wounds and issues, in order to go beyond them.  The astrology of the start of Summer has been pushing us to do just that – and a season of growth, light and discovery has now truly begun.

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This summer will see the gathering together of emerging healers, lightworkers, spiritual warriors of all kinds, for many it will boost the growth of the idea that we are Spirit on a journey to revelation and liberation and it will deepen connections between people that will enable that journey to become more conscious, more visible – and more central to our lives.  At festivals and other events people will experience community, connection and communion in new and exciting ways – the Spirit has prepared us for a leap into new awareness and a brighter vision of our existence.  Are you ready to leap?  We may have to leave our comfort zones for this to happen, relinquish some attachments and unhelpful beliefs.  We will certainly have to open our minds to new ideas, our hearts to new people and possibilities, but the thing to remember is – that is the path.  The shadow work will continue at times, but the focus for the coming months will be on the light of who we are, the light of spirit, the positive potential in humanity as we make the shift from the confusing and conflicted Age of Pisces into the possibilities of the age of Aquarius.

A Summer of Evolution starts here.  In 2017 we commemorate 50 years since the first Summer of Love, 50 years since the partial decriminalisation of male homosexuality in the UK (and also 100 years since the Russian Revolution).  As we honour these big shifts in human history we can become more aware of the transformation we are currently going through.  This is a time of change, and it helps to remind ourselves that we have all the resources we need inside ourselves to embrace it and evolve.  In order to really enjoy this ride of transformation we need a sense of the bigger picture, a sense of belonging and a belief in our own soul and the positive growth we  are undergoing.  To get this we need good relationship with ourselves, with nature and with other people.  As we enter Summer the Cancer SuperNew Moon is offering the opportunity to affirm these things and set our sights on the most positive and affirming vision of ourselves, and of life itself, that we can.

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I will be co-hosting a workshop on the transformations we are living through, plus a performance about the role of queer beings in this time at QUEER SPIRIT FESTIVAL, happening in Wiltshire, UK 26-30 July 2017.  www.queerspirit.net

Homage To My Father

Norton George Whiting

22nd February 1926 – 30th April 2017

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My Dad was a peaceful man of water spirit, with a compassionate Piscean Sun and sensitive Cancer Moon who found the conflict, corruption and abuse rife in the world baffling.  He wrote poetry in 2014, some of which will feature here:

I love to walk in the woods at night

when all silent quiet and moon is bright

the wind is whispering in the trees

there also is a very slight breeze

a hedgehog rumbles across my path

a scuttle in the grass a rabbit has just run by

a barking fox in the distance I hear

a bellowing stag is standing near

a small brown owl hoots from a tree

as much to say he wishes he was me

but now I must return to the outside world of turmoil

Norton was a nature man who grew up on farmland and was blessed with a natural sensitivity that gave him the gift of animal magic, animals trusted him, he was something of a horse whisperer. In his retirement he kept a horse Patch and took great delight in driving his pony and trap around the Suffolk villages.

He had a long retirement, nearly 30 years, after 30 years working shifts at ICI Paints. He embraced retirement joyfully, taking the opportunity not only to keep a horse but also to express his passion for gardening, keeping his own garden immaculate, his lawn neat, and looking after other, bigger gardens, such as for the Anstead family in Old Newton.

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Norton was a shy romantic. He had a gypsy in his soul and often dreamt of a simpler life travelling the land in a horse drawn caravan. His parents Blanche and George had 7 kids; one daughter, Renee, and 6 sons, Norton the oldest son. He grew up working on the land and although his life changed, ending up all those years in factory warehouse and living since 1970 in Crown Street, Stowmarket, he still had, in his later life, connection to the place of inner peace and sense of the natural order of things, that growing up with nature had given him.

O why wasn’t I born a tree? To stand in a field and watch the world go by,

To stand with great ease to sway in the breeze. O why wasn’t I born a tree?

If I was a tree I would stand and smile at everyone that crossed my stile. 

The wind it could blow, we might even have snow, then that would be my life as a tree.

norton (4)He met his wife-to-be Rona at a dance hall in the village of Thorndon in the late 1940s, though he, the shy gypsy, was not a dancer. The pace of life was much slower in those days, and I believe they were courting for perhaps a decade, him cycling across the Suffolk countryside to visit his sweetheart, before they tied the knot.

Rona and Norton were married in October 1954, that’s 63 years together, the last decade or so he showing his devotion by caring for my mum as she became less able. After so many years of her dedicating herself to looking after him and me, the roles swapped and he became the housekeeper and chef, even learning to bake fabulous apple pies as good as Rona’s.

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Two Pisceans, with suitable names, Rona was born a Haddock and became a Whiting. They brought up this Aquarian, who has moved out into the world to become a teacher of love and spirit, our quiet little family in a way symbolises the shift of the ages on planet earth from Pisces to Aquarius. Rona and Norton were not destined to have a family of their own, but twists of fate brought me to them, to their little cottage on Stowupland Green where they kept their chickens and a pig, maintaining the link to living with nature that had been part of the upbringing of both of them, a central part of their family histories.

They come from a long line of people of the land, people who have a sense of the natural flow of life and death and the interdependence of people, animals and plants. For this foundling faerie child they provided a loving, protective, safe environment, and when I turned out to be somebody motivated to go out explore the world, they adapted to that, they coped with my colourful haircuts and colourful friends, when I brought boyfriends home to stay they always welcomed them into their hearts.

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Norton lived a simple, full life. Don’t get caught up in the nonsense, could have been his motto. ‘As long as you’re all right, that’s the main thing’ was his defining phrase. He enjoyed pretty good health right up until his 91st year, and the end came quickly and with mercy, over the course of four months, following a prostate cancer diagnosis. Here’s another of his poems ….

As I lay asleep in my bed at night

and in my dreams I dream of time past

I dream of my friends that have long passed

yet they come back to me

as if it were yesterday doing the things in work and play

if only it was yesterday

Norton had led a good life, his karma was good and his soul was able to detach without too much struggle. He began to see the spirit world in his final months and I was glad to encourage him to tell me what he saw, because I had had my own initiation with death 20 years ago which brought home to me that we are souls on an eternal journey, not just bodies having a random experience, that the spirit world is as real, or more real even than the physical, and that love is what connects it all and makes existence rich, rewarding and divine.

I have come to see that the straightforward no-nonsense, unconditional love that my parents Rona and Norton both blessed me with and inspired in me as a child was the greatest gift possible, it set me up for life.  I have danced with Native Americans, smoked chillums with Hindu Saddhu holy men, and been a key player in the development of a spiritual tribe of gay-lesbian-bi-trans people in the UK, but all this is rooted in the simple loving wisdom my Suffolk parents nurtured in me.  Dad and I were able to have conversations in his final weeks about god, Jesus, heaven and hell, and I felt happy to be able to offer him the reassurance and confidence I feel about the journey out of life that we all have to take.

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When he left he went peacefully, having been surrounded by love during his last hours on earth, with me, mum, cousin Leonard and wife Brenda, brother Geoff and wife Hilda at his side. And he left at Beltane Eve, 30th April, when the pagan calendar tells us the veils between the human and spirit worlds are thin, like at hallowe’en. Norton was a true Suffolk gentle-man, a lovely soul, carrying more wisdom than he perhaps let us see: he wrote this last poem a few years ago and there are several copies of it in his notebooks. He definitely wanted me to find it, and in fact he asked that it be read at his funeral….

Do not cry or shed tears

For I am not here I am in the far horizon

Where there is no time, clouds or land to see

I shall one day return, but not as me, so just remember me.

I think it’s ok to shed tears, but also ok to move to a place of acceptance, after all death will take us all.  It is ok to let spiritual peace come and bid him a very fond farewell.  Dad nurtured a feeling of protection and safety and love of nature in me as a child, which prompted me to share this song at his funeral, one he used to sing to me….

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Click here to watch: The Fox by Harry Belafonte on 1954 RCA Victor LP. – YouTube

Norton we miss you and bless you on your journey through spirit and into another lifetime.

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The reason I love Jesus

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Because he died on the Cross for my sins! ONLY JOKING!

The Jesus story is a mythological map demonstrating the stages of the path of initiation into God-Consciousness, into the place where ‘The Father and I are One’. Mystery Schools both before and since his time have been places where souls who were called were able to explore the initatory path with others. That is why the Jesus story echoes so many older myths, they are all trying to tell us what is possible for us here on planet Earth. But to understand this we have to look deeply into the mysticism of the story, dedicate ourselves to the task and use our own consciousness as a vehicle of exploration. Death and Resurrection are two quite advanced steps on this path, coming after Birth (of the awakened spiritual heart – the Christ child within), Baptism (into the realm of elemental and astral presence and blessing) and Transfiguration (release of ego and growth into light body) but they are not the end of the story, as that other mystical wisdom tradition, astrology, shows us every year at Samhain. Dying to the limited ego self to discover the ecstasy of liberation, finding union with the divine Self, the holy spirit that opens our consciousness to the limitless possibilities of the multiverse, is the goal of eastern religion and western mysticism. It is also what the shamans and witches of the old peoples around the entire world used to do on a daily basis, surrendering into trance and possession to channel the energies of spirit for the benefit of the community. It is the practice of renunciation taken when leaving the world to become a monk, in whatever faith, and the purpose behind medieval monastic communities in Christian Europe – but loving brotherhood was a principle taken a little too far for some and was stamped down by the dissolution of the monasteries and the buggery act under Henry VIII.

The achievement of union with the divine is absolutely not the goal of monotheistic religions which teach that Heaven is only achievable after death.

During the Middle Ages there were many so-called ‘Free Spirit’ movements that embraced the possibility of union with God and approved of achieving that through sexual, including homosexual, means. Once the soul was united with the Higher Self, these movements believed, the individual could no longer sin. Life was to be enjoyed. Far too pagan for the Catholic/State establishment, these ideas were wiped out during the Inquisition.

Easter 2017. A Roman Catholic university in Kansas, USA bans yoga, saying….

“It is a mind and body practice developed under Hinduism, the goal of which is spiritual purification that will lead to a higher level of understanding and eventually union with the divine,” said Rev John Riley, chancellor for the Archdiocese of Kansas City, to the Wichita Eagle.

“It is for these reasons that Catholics are alerted to the dangers of the practice of yoga and are encouraged to look for other exercise alternatives that do not incorporate a spiritual dimension.”

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/catholic-university-yoga-ban-eastern-mysticism-benedictine-college-in-kansas-lifestyle-fitness-a7682796.html

They do have a point in one sense. The journey of initiation into divine consciousness should be approached humbly and sincerely. It will strip away all illusions about who we are, challenge us to embrace dichotomies and impossibilities… it will break down all our inner resistance and challenge us to rise like a phoenix every time that we end up burnt to a crisp by the power of Kali’s love.

As someone who woke up to the Path of Initiation in the mid 1990s I can say… There is no better ride. But daily I read posts by intelligent, educated people who have got stuck in the paradigm of science vs spirit – when they discuss the possibility of the existence of a creator god it is usually as something ‘out there’, separate. The existence of mystery paths of initiation into the divine Self on this planet is still well hidden.

ALSO 2017: CAN THE WORLD NOT SEE WHAT’S GOING ON HERE?

GAY PEOPLE ARE THE CARRIERS OF THE CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS (which is called other things by other paths) PLAYING THE ROLE JESUS PLAYED 2000 YEARS AGO. When the LGBTQ community catches on to the awakening game, human evolution will accelerate.

Us 1990s awakeners were the third wave of souls coming to awareness of the path since the 1960s. I quickly learnt that the roots for this awakening had been laid in the UK since the late 19th century by the Theosophists, and before that by the Elizabethan mystics John Dee and the Rosicrucians, and long before that by Arthur and Merlin at Camelot.

The second decade of the 21st century is bringng the next wave of awakening. It is hitting like a tsunami, and not unrelated is the intense level of crisis and darkness that certain streams of human consciousness are currently creating. This is for sure the time when the wave of awakening rises so high that many big illusions the world has bought into are crumbling. . But there is a danger now compared to the time of my flowering of awareness in the 1990s – that awakeners can access so much information and connection through the internet that they reach overload, maybe get attached to certain ideas and neglect the real place that truth, peace and understanding are found – inside! Grandmother Ayahuasca has become prominent suddenly because she can give busy modern people a rapid reboot into soul consciousness. She makes us puke out our sickening disbelief and return to the childlike soul state where we can receive her healing and teaching. Awakeners need to remember that all the stories, from Jesus to the Pleiadians, Buddha to the Ascended Masters, are there to wake us up. Also to remember that waking up is not a momentary thing! It is a path of dedication, initiation, mystery, tests, trials, opportunities, ecstasies and agonies as we shift from the material to the spiritual paradigm.

There are many ways and stages of awakening. Once we discover the path we have to learn how to walk on it! We best listen to the teachings that speak most clearly to our own soul and keep out what offends it. Let our habits evolve and adapt. Keep company that supports our ongoing discoveries. And importantly, affirm to ourselves that we are on the path of awakening to our greater, holier, older Self that has already existed many times in many places. This will keep our trials and the world’s challenges in perspective and help us to hold the peace within ourselves whatever transpires in this year of the Fire Rooster.

Jesus said “I am the Way” – or that’s how it is translated.  What he was really telling us is that the ‘I AM’ is the Way, and as manifestations of the I AM we are all on it. The Jesus story is best approached as a road map.

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Read more on the Path of Initiation:http://www.shareintl.org/archives/AgelessWisdom/aw_bcgospel.htm

Queer Shamans

THE QUEER SHAMANS who play, dance and work in light and dark

not afraid of either

for they are in touch with the ether

and the rainbow that lies beyond

the illusion of duality

the effects of electromagnetism and gravity

they’ve come to restore some sanity

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QUEER SPIRIT

calls together awakening queers in touch with nature and spirit

… explorers of consciousness, lust and love…  of laughter, light and liberation

The potential lies in us to bring together day and night

To reveal the multiverse beyond

To sing the Goddess song.

Sometimes that song is full of rage

Sometimes it’s sweet and nurturing

Unlocking the gifts of crone and sage

The next chapter of the Aquarian story

 

Calling to the Witch in every Queer

To the Priestess in every Lesbian

To the Shaman in every Gay barman

The Divine Mother in every Bear

The Abbot in every Faggot

The Deity in every Dyke

The Radical in every Faerie

It’s time for the QUEER PEOPLES OF PLANET EARTH TO COME HOME 

 

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Queer Spirit Festival.  July 26-30, 2017.  Wiltshire UK

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HIV: THE GOD SEED

There are many, many young guys on the internet and mobile phone app fuelled gay cruise scene who are chasing the thrill and danger of bareback, unprotected sex with HIV+ men.

“I’m neg, love taking poz loads”

“What makes poz loads so hot?”

“I guess just the risk.”

Why is this game of russian roulette, this exposure to the risk of being infected with a deadly disease (that can be controlled but only by adhering strictly to a daily medication regime) such a turn on for some guys?  Why is positive sperm so attractive to some?

IS THIS A DEATHWISH?  

DOES IT STEM FROM A SENSE OF WORTHLESSNESS THAT IS THE INHERITANCE MODERN GAY MEN CARRY AFTER CENTURIES OF HOMOPHOBIC REPRESSION AND ABUSE?

Or is it the response of sensitive queer souls to the complex chaos and overbearing demands of modern human society?

OR…. could it even be  A CALL FROM THE SOUL INSIDE TO ESCAPE THE DELUSION THAT HUMANITY IS STUCK IN?  HIV woke me up to the multidimensional existence that our consciousness is engaged in exploring, and also helped me gain some perspective on the demands and madness of human life.

HIV was for me a trigger to learn that HEALING IS VITAL – and that healing encompasses the whole being, not just the body.  Through living with HIV I came to learn that we are beings of body-mind-soul-spirit, and even came to believe that the reason I became HIV+ in the first place was that i was living a life in the shallow end of emotional and spiritual engagement.  I was not seeking to grow as a person, not seeking to discover my soul’s talents and the magical gifts of my spirit, so my life was heading to a DEAD END.

AIDS was for me an ACCELERATED INDIVIDUAL DISCOVERY OF SELF.  Faced with impending death, a CD4 count dropping to almost zero and multiple aids related conditions ravaging my body, I opened my mind to life’s spiritual questions – who am i? why do i exist? what is life? what is love? – and finally found the spark that got my soul excited.  My inner worlds came to life.  Having chucked god and religion out of my life aged 12, I had been an ardent atheist who denied the spiritual side of existence.  But facing death woke me up to the fact that we are in fact SPIRIT first, and LIVING BODIES, second. Then i found that DEATH was seen as the greatest spiritual teacher in Buddhist, Hindu and Pagan traditions.  Experienced witches bowed to me because they could tell that my journey to the brink of life had opened up a deep connection with the spirit world for me. Overcoming the fear of death is the most powerful thing we can do to free up the spirit energy, love and joy locked in our energy bodies.

HIV invites us to face and embrace our mortality.  This can inspire us to live each moment of life with increased engagement and passion.  It can make us appreciate life all the more, and hopefully open us up to how we create our experience of that life through our own attitudes and beliefs.  HIV for me opened the gates to the spirit worlds and convinced me that we are not simply these bodies on a one lifetime chance existence – rather, we are EXISTENCE itself, getting to know itself, getting to explore its creation, AS US.  Therefore there is no need to fear death any more, it is simply a matter of a shift of focus, back to what we really are.

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Why are some guys so keen to become positive?  When I ask that i am somtimes told that it is from their desire to be part of a ‘brotherhood’ – one that feels free to enjoy unbridled sexual connection.  In a world where soul and spirit are not understood or even hardly included, for some it seems that sexual highs are about the best thing to aim for in this life. Of course, from the point of view of this sexual mystic, that makes perfect sense… the chase for sexual ecstasy comes from the longing to reunite with the Source, the whole of Nature is driven by this desire, and it it’s done right, sex can certainly take us there.

For some it even seems that infecting others with the virus is what gives the high they long for….

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This brotherhood may be shadowy but it dares to speak its name: websites exist such as that of ‘POZCHEMPIG’ on Tumblr, which declares the “Only way for real men to bond and truly take pride in being a man is to enjoy AIDS brotherhood in each other.”

I propose that the desire to be HIV positive is on one level a push from the soul to make us wake up to who we really are and to what the story of life on earth is really about. We can get to that discovery  through unconscious peaks and dark dives or by pursuing self-chosen evolution.  The effective medications that block HIV’s attacks on our immune systems mean we are encouraged by society to ‘carry on’ as normal, fitting into the system, going to work, playing the game, and for some this becomes the game of chemically enhanced sexuality.   We are not really encouraged to start questioning, searching and finding our deepest core nature.  But HIV affects us deeply, on more than a physical level.  It changes us.  The drug fuelled sex scene is an expression of that. We may not be dropping dead of AIDS any more but the chemsex game leads many to a place of annihilation and devastation, to a place of rock bottom from which they will be forced to learn to live more consciously.  

AIDS took me to devastation, loss of self, but also woke up in me a sense of meaning to my life.  I came to see HIV as a trigger to my personal evolution and was transformed by it.  All over the world I meet other gay men whose lives have been opened up by their experience of HIV.  They have learnt about themselves and grown to be wiser and better people.

So much of the story coming out about long  term HIV+ men is about depression, loneliness, poor health, poverty and suicide.  Why this future would be appealing to negative guys is certainly a mystery.  But in fact this is not my experience. HIV has brought me knowledge, motivation, power, love and friendship.  It has opened me to the evolutionary potential in modern humans – once we get the point that as modern humans, the cutting edge of evolution is in us.  Through our hearts and minds we make choices every day that further our growth into light or descent into darkness.  HIV is the perfect symbol of this power that we humans have, and exercise so unconsciously all the time:  once infected we have the power of life and death over ourselves (take the pills and live or don’t take them and die). HIV can seem like the most devastating thing that can happen to a person – and when I became positive in the 1980s it was – but it can also be our teacher, our healer, our awakener. 

HIV has the potential to wake us up to who we really are, if we ask the relevant questions. That is why I am choosing to call HIV the GOD SEED and that is perhaps why, without knowing why, so many men are chasing it.

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Arcane Perfection

An essay summarising some of my historical research into the spiritual roles played by Queers throughout human history appears in a new anthology of writing, just published and available from Cutlines Press and other places, including a Kindle version retailing at around a dollar!  Excerpt and links to book below

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ARCANE PERFECTION is a collection of essays, poetry, art, rage, love, rituals, spells, and musings by, for, and about Queer, Trans, and Intersex Witches. The book began as a coven project to further curate the Witchery of our Queer, Trans, and Intersex members, and then the project was expanded to encompass Queer, Trans, or Intersex people from around the world. – See more at: http://www.cutlinespress.com/articles/26/arcane-perfection-an-anthology-by-queer-trans-intersex-witches#sthash.8CtawT6l.dpuf

Arcane Perfection mixes personal stories with mythology, spiritual and political visions, and actual witchcraft, including rituals and spells such as the “Queer Sovereignty Spell for Pride, Power and Protection,” and the “Deadname Decoy Spell.” Articles like “Queer Bears & Berserkers,” “Candles for Queer Magic,” “The Transgender Body as Holy and Liminal Witchcraft,” and “A Trans Positive Ritual Space” are some of the explorations of queer- and trans-centric magickal practice. – See more at: http://www.cutlinespress.com/articles/26/arcane-perfection-an-anthology-by-queer-trans-intersex-witches#sthash.8CtawT6l.dpuf

 

Here is an excerpt from my essay…..

WE ARE THE OLD PEOPLE, WE ARE THE NEW PEOPLE

Sexual practices and homosexual priests and priestesses were normal in the pagan religion of the ancient world. Pan, Dionysis, Aphrodite were among the deities worshipped sometimes in single sex cults. When Roman Emperor Hadrian’s young lover Antinous died mysteriously while sailing on the Nile, the spirit of Osiris was invoked and Antinous raised to the level of a god. His worship was popular, it spread throughout the empire within a decade and was an attempt to revive the power of the old religion in the face of the competition of the more rigorous new faith, Christianity.

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In Scandinavia Seidr was a shamanic practice led by women and feminine men. The word for the femininised nature of these men was ergi, which would become an insulting term as the macho patriarchal Christian culture wiped out the pagan past. It was one of the longest enduring shamanic traditions of Europe, only gradually wiped out by the Christian church.

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The suppression of heresies that challenged the rising Christian state and of vestiges of the old pagan religions went hand in hand, and both were associated with sexual libertarianism and the acceptance of same sex activity. The Cathars of southern France are a well-known example, but were just one of many ‘Free Spirit’ movements challenging Christian dominance in the middle ages. The Church opposed the Free Spirit notion that the soul in mystical union with god was unable to sin, whatever it does. From 15 to 17C the dark work of the Inquisition was continued in the witch hunts, which can be seen as a concerted effort to finally wipe out the spiritual power of women and of queer nature men from Europe. In Britain we know it was mostly women who were burnt as witches but across Europe there were also large numbers of men burned for the practice of sorcery.

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Of course many spiritually inclined queer men and women were drawn into the Christian church, serving their communities, living in monasteries etc. The monasteries of the Middle Ages saw a flowering of same sex love, and resulted in the church issuing ever more edicts against the sexual consummation of that love. When Henry VIII dissolved the monasteries in England in the 16th century he was able to use the accusation of unnatural sexual practices against the Catholic monks. In the Middle Ages and right up until fairly recent times the sacred potential in same sex love was recognised in the Islamic faith by the Sufis, with much of the world’s great mystical poetry (eg by Rumi, Hafiz) inspired by it. The modern religious taboos against queer people have been created by heterosexual men (whose power comes from physical might not intuitive, spiritual gifts) to suppress our spirit, our power, our expression. But the story isn’t over yet.

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Having spent a millennium wiping out the spiritual resonance of same sex love and gender fluid individuals on the old continent, what a shock the European explorers had when they arrived in the new world. They found homosexuality was accepted as perfectly normal amongst the Native American tribes, and that the sacred functionaries of the native peoples were gendervariant individuals. The Europeans called them ‘berdache’, a French word for a passive queer, and this word stuck until the 1990s when the native shamans began to reclaim their power, giving themselves a new name – Two Spirit. And it was not only in north America that the Europeans found this link between gender bending and the spiritual work of the tribe. It was documented also in Africa, south America, Australasia. In China and Japan homosexual practices were seen as privileges of the monastic classes, and when the Jesuits protested at this they were literally laughed out of town.

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One tribe in Africa has managed to keep alive its ancient wisdom relating to our kind. Sobonfu and Malidoma Some, teachers from the Dagara of western Africa, speak of gay men as gatekeepers and lesbians as witches. They say that to define a person by their sexual practice is to seriously limit them. They teach that it is entirely normal that a person’s inner gender may be different to the gender of their physical body. They teach that same sex erotic behaviour can be used to unlock gates to spirit, to access non-physical dimensions, and that this is vital work that brings balance and well-being to the whole tribe.

There is a vast history, and a beautiful, miraculous spiritual reality awaiting the queer peoples of planet earth, when we awaken to the deep relationship our souls have with nature and the cosmos. Rejected by religion, many of us are drawn to explore our souls through witchcraft and other magical practices, we are drawn to eastern practices of yoga and meditation, because we sense instinctively that spirituality is about having a personal relationship with creation, with nature, with the cycles of life, and not about obeying the rules set down by churches. Spirituality is about finding and manifesting our true self – which sounds a lot like Coming Out. Queer communities might try embracing coming out as a spiritual act, an act of self-actualisation and a step on the path of self-realisation. Then we might see that being queer is a process of self-discovery, an ever unfolding one in which we never stop growing, discovering and becoming more of who we are.

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IImage from The Faggots and Their Friends Between Revolutions, 1977.

YOU CAN PURCHASE ARCANE PERFECTION IN PRINT OR KINDLE VERSION FROM: http://www.cutlinespress.com/articles/26/arcane-perfection-an-anthology-by-queer-trans-intersex-witches

Super Human: Chems and Consciousness

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Shamans across the world have always used substances from nature to expand their consciousness and commune with other layers of reality.  Modern humanity has all kinds of chemical magic that we have added to this pot of potential, but pays too little attention to the reality of the multiverse our trips take us too.

LSD opens the mind

Ecstasy opens the heart

Cocaine boosts the power centre

Crystal Meth/G/Mephedrone expand the sexual drive

(at least that’s all gay men seem to be using them for)

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If we take them all is human potential unleashed?

Better to understand that human potential exists without the chems

When we understand what we are:  divine ecstatic souls incarnate

Chems become signposts to the Way, doors to our own nature,

That can show us the unity of consciousness on the dance floor

Take us on journeys through the infinite mind space

That can reveal how strong and mighty the love within us is

Can point to our powerful potential as humans

And unlock the spirit trapped in the body.

They can reveal the thing that science keeps concealed

That the mental, emotional and spirit planes

Are vast, eternal and REAL.

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We have travelled and explored the physical

Right down to the quantum level

But while we are a species trapped in conflict and division

The gates to the other realms remain largely closed

One day all will see that the soul is part of infinity

The mental, emotional and spirit dimensions

Are as real, as vast, or even more so, than the physical

Humans have a lot to explore and discover yet

But we still haven’t got a grip on the basics.

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The idea that existence is an accident

Or the result of a physical big bang

Will be as ridiculous in the future

As the idea of a flat earth is to us today.

The idea of denying God

Because of the amount of suffering on planet earth

Will be as ridiculous in the future

As the idea that the earth is the centre of the universe.

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Existence is made of the forces of Creation

Preservation and Destruction/Transformation

These are the God powers and they exist in us

We live in a free will zone with divine power

In our thoughts, hearts, will and loins

We are the Creators, Preservers, Destroyer/Transformers

It’s time to own our powers

And recognise

That One Spirit is emanating here

As black, yellow, red, white, as straight, bi, queer

The refugee suffering loss is you

The Age of Aquarius will be online soon.

To get there we have to break so many delusions

Escape and transform so much confusion

But when unity is grasped

And our power so vast

Embraced and channelled for love

The veils will lift and the multiverse be revealed

The r-evolution will come.

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Stay strong through the tumult

Life is a game but it’s destination is clear

Move beyond division, move beyond fear

The Age of Aquarius

The Age of the Super Humans

Is almost here.

IMBOLC 2017